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Oh Claus!

2009-12-24T14:56:00.004+08:00

It's Christmas and soon 2010 to be. I thought I could spend another new year eve in London but the Brits wouldn't let me so what's there left to do but to enjoy the fiesta in the country I love most (apart from the heat, ruthless!)? :D

These constant excuses the capitalists gave us to spend and get fat! So (not) good.

Anyways, Joyeux Noël x Merry Christmas peeps!

Lots of love

Farewell, Kookie.

2009-12-02T01:34:00.003+08:00

It strikes me again, the feeling. The feeling of desolation, not physical but mental agony.

I'm grateful to have had him. Now that he is gone, I hope he finds the path to his very own heaven.

R.I.P Kookie.

Love,

Français ou Japonais?

2009-10-28T00:54:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile now that I'm back in Malaysia. I've been enjoying every bit of it, a bit too much I think. Especially eating whatnots and getting my perfect diet meal routines I've built so wearingly in the UK completely ruined. Go on diet would be the first thing to do once I step foot on the English land again. Things has been so far so good, BUT problem is I'm starting to feel lethargic, not wanting to get out of my cosy lair. Mainly for the fact that I'm exhausted. I'll have to admit I'm a dork, I should stay at home and read a book and go out once a week. Turning down friendly invites just because makes me feel bad. Gotta plan for the next getaway asap before I go mad. Now that I've gone up the mountains, the next should probably be the ocean. I haven't been to the sea since my return; which is one of the top to-dos in my "What to do when I'm back" list.

It's Ryn's birthday last Sunday, wish I was there. Looks so much fun! Me miss steamboating in Hatfield!!!

Oh and I went to Singapore some weeks ago. I didn't believe my dad that I'll spend a bunch. Spent more than when I was in London. Nabehhh! But I do like the Explanade facade, sitting by and the soothing wind. Syioknya~

I've been thinking of taking up French OR Japanese language course. Two lovely languages, I couldn't possibly take up two at once, if only I'm that great. Decision must be made before I leave for my convocation, enough for procrastination! But which one? O_O

Diana Mini, not easy but I'm trying and reckon someday I'll be okay.

Till later.

lov,

kelle

Pffffffffff.

2009-08-22T09:50:00.003+08:00

I should be happily packing for home now but I'm not. You know what I hate about life is that there are so many decisions to make; they strangle you and make you feel like you wanna die because whatever decisions you're going to make, will not be as initially planned. Complications leading from one to another is just plain arse.

If some of you do not see me back by September, please pray very hard for me so that I can be back AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. It's not like I dislike the UK or anything. In fact, I'm quite contented, with great friends, weird weather and a hyperactive neighborhood. Yet, there is no place like home. HOME people, HOME. I miss my family and best friends so much I shed tears in the night. You cannot imagine how much I wanted to be home.

I think I should just get married and let my husband deal with the crap. But firstly, I will need to find a man. "A husband" (or similar) will be on the top of my 24th birthday wishlist. That would do. Yes.

Love

One Post Per Season.

2009-07-28T11:40:00.003+08:00

I've almost forgotten the fact that I do own a blog. Never had the urge to make an update, prolly it's because nothing much is happening that's why. What I hope for is that everything turn out fine when they're suppose to.

It's only August yet I can smell the welcoming scent from home. In a month time, I will be at home, with my family and friends (and maybe foes, but with a low possibility). Hopefully, I don't get too upset leaving my family-like friends in the UK.

Will update soon, most probably in this season. :)))

lov.

Oh Spring.

2009-03-23T00:00:00.006+08:00

When the sun comes out along with the just-fine breeze, you'd know it's Spring. People started to get really happy and excited. The school-team-footballers only field has now become a chill spot for everyone. It's getting somewhat rowdy, they have to scream in the night too, what has that going to do with Spring?! Go do callisthenics in the sun and get yourselves tired then go to sleep at night, dude - ['d(y)ood] that's how my friend suggests reading the word, sounds like canto foul lang., which i think is perfectly relevant calling these Night Crows it, dude(s).

It's Spring and it's QingMing now. My family just went paying our filial respect to my beloved granpa before his tomb. I want to go along, I want to go with them. I want to tell granpa that I missed him so much. It has been over a year now yet it's still so vivid; the moment everything went silent and still... I tried so hard to listen, hoping him to give me another sign, but he never did. That's the moment when you know, nothing is going to be different, you will still go to school or work, you will still have tea and watch telly at home as usual. The only difference is that you'll not hear him bid you goodbye when you go out to school or work, you can never ask what tea he'd like to have, you can never ask him questions and get answers... and that you can never see him again, ever. Hopefully, Spring would make these all good. Fortunately that person who started QingMing was not an emo kid, or else he/she would make it a winter event. That sounds devastating.

My hair colour is getting lighter by the day...
I'd rather eat raspberry-flavoured than real raspberries.
Will update more soon.

lov.
p/s: Have you ever came across any events or things - random and rather unimportant to others - which meant alot to you?

Que Sera Sera!

2009-01-02T12:18:00.009+08:00

Finally, 2008 has ended. I'm not those who make a new year plan beforehand and go with it. Yet, there are a few events from 2008 which I'd like to heed.

My long waited TOA graduation exhibition happens to kick off my year of 2008, there have been a few job interviews before that; thanks to the kancil student award which has then lead me to more job opportunities. In February, I've got a job together with Mian at Bozell Worldwide, a comfortable ad agency full of nice and friendly people (and some not so friendly people). That is where I met CheeSun, the creative director of BW; kind and intelligent man with a charming smile who had me making the baskin robbins tvc storyboard and had an ice-cream phobia for 3 months; (yet I'm happy because he likes the work and gave me loads of BR freebies!) and Boon, the head of art. She is a virgoen just like myself, loves Paris but will only visit with her very love and she often drives me around for lunch. I wish she's doing very well in Shanghai.

I quit this job in June to prepare for further studying. I promised to go back to BW in August but I never did; I did not expect to spend such amount of time for the university applications and visa. Later in August, I've got my student visa and then, everything seems clear.

September 2008, the month I depart for UK. Saying goodbye is not what I do best, at least not this time. Therefore I kept the number of farewells minimal. 20-09-2008, after bidding my family goodbye, me and my mom departed from KLIA to LDN Heathrow. The 15hrs of direct flight was rather pleasant despite the suckie food from MAS, but I think there was something which tasted not entirely bad though, couldn't remember what it was. I've spent the orientation week with Viv and Siri. It was 02-10-2008, the day my mom tear while walking into the departure gate of Heathrow. Luckily I have Viv with me at that time. Later that night, I met Sylvia, Aaron and ThangWei, my coolios at this emoland. I had my first tutorial in UK on 07-10-2008; lost my specs after a trip to London on 10-10-2008; miss my granpa and cried the whole night on 05-11-2008; had a job interview with Anne Browne on 19-10-2008. Gone crazy when I was drunk one night; Alison was trapped outside the tube and got me freaked out; Sang along with cha bao lou dou's piano; Read a decent number of Peter Bil'ak, Rick Poynor, Milton Glaser and Michael Bierut; Many many sleepless nights and finished my first ever six thousand words essay in November.

As for December, I ended it with style. Spent a lovely Christmas in London, met wonderful Yisuen, Swisstee and Oliver Cift (the chatterbox) and dressed the end of my 2008 with clothes I bought on Boxing day and THAT'S A WWWRRRAP!

Year 2009 - I believe it will be a year; which is better than ever.

Que sera sera!

love.

DROWN IN MUNDANE

2008-10-25T07:33:00.006+08:00

Leaves fell and winded up by the strong wind then fallen again and giggled. Some stepped upon, some held closely with others, some in solitary. If they have feelings, if only they have feelings, they will answer my solemn by dancing gracefully in the air to tell me not to be afraid of cruel winter. I miss you all so much.

It's getting cold...

KUL ---> LDN

2008-09-26T03:44:00.007+08:00

It's not easy for me to leave everyone i love in m'sia. Hopefully i'll feel alright after awhile. Apart from the homesickness, UK is actually GREAT. I've know some friends to hang out with and what's more is I have my mom with me for these two weeks. I'll prolly start feeling VERY VERY homesick in a few more days cos she's heading back to msia soon.

The uni is huge. I hv to walk for so hours everyday but i'm getting used to it now. They have very limited info counters where you get almost everything done with, somewhat like 6 or 7, which is really annoying. I've to queue for bout an hour to PAY. Now thats ridiculous. Anyways, at least I don't have to squeeze meself with the home students coming in next week. I reckon thr'll be chaos, no kidding. I still haven't got any timetables for next week so that's another thing. Hatfield is a quiet place, great for studies i suppose. They should use sound proof walls in student halls though, sometimes students can get really wild and yelling their lungs out and you're trying to sleep. Apart from those, this place is GGGGREAT! It's near London :), a place full of temptations ;p Don't think I can handle it if i go out to town too often ;p Anyways, i still went, and i'm definitely going back again. haha ;)) I've only manage to shop along picadilly and oxford circus + london chinatown at last, had my super deliciousss roasted duck rice!

Here r some of the pics i took when im free, u might miss some precious bits of oxford circus, not cos i havent been thr, just that i'm too busy to take pics ;) well, i do in some places, when i'm free, again.

Thats about it for now.. :) gdluck my dears.

x

IT'S THE FINAL COUNTDOWN.

2008-09-12T01:53:00.012+08:00

It's only after a chat with my sister made me realize how little time I have left to be with my family and friends. For one year, I wouldn't have the chance to speak to them face to face, give them my warm hug when they're sad, have them laugh at my funniest jokes, slap their shoulders when they say something bad about me, exchanging looks when we saw something funny and much, much more. Ever since I was born, I've been well taken care of every aspect in my life. Don't ask me if silk should be iron on with a piece of cotton cloth layered on top because I wouldn't know. Well, actually I know this since I've written it here. You should really iron delicate fabrics topped with a piece of cotton fabric to prevent the heat from your iron damaging the fabric fibers. My point is, it is time for me to take responsibility for my own sake. I am fortunate to be born in a good family, I have nothing much to worry about all my life. Wonderful isn't it? It is, sure it is.

The last few months, I've got really worried. Should I continue to work or study? Which university would be a better choice? What are the costs to it? What will I be with and without the course? Do I want to leave my love and travel tothe other part of the world? Can I take care of myself? Do I even know how to cook? and etc. Doubts keep attacking me even until now yet I think it's rather exciting. There's this phrase one always say, *ASK QUESTIONS! EVEN SILLY QUESTIONS!* I find this intriguing and sometimes laughable because you wouldn't know what you'll sort out. See, sometimes life without worries is not as fun. By the way, I've answered all my doubts above including this one *Do I even know how to cook?*. You want proof? I give you proof.

GO! GO! GO! After all the hard work and sweat, we deserve it!
the making of the fury feast by the two BRILLIANT CHEFS!* Asahi is not part of any dishes.

Not that I wanted to praise myself but hey I am talented. You've got to admit it. ;)

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ONE week left and I'm gonna lay my ass in LONDON!!!

...to be continued

ANXXXIOUS

2008-07-21T16:09:00.004+08:00

It's approximately 2 more months to my departure date. I'm starting to have slight pre-departure phobia. Imagination of me being alone in the dorm, cold and giggling. The thought gave me a shiver. Till then, wish me luck and we'll see if the sky is really as gray. Of course, I always have ways to relieve the anxiousness ;)